This child who just wanted to play in the sun at nyanga is everywhere the child grown to a man treks through all africa what word best describes jonker’s tone in these lines from “the child is not dead”? angry disappointed disillusioned hopeful

Disappointed is what I want to say it is but im not positive. I hope im right!:)

Journal entryNovember 11, 1620What a terrible journey! It has been quite a long time for us so I am thrilled to have finally arrived to Cape Cod. I could not possible describe fully how I reacted when we arrive, I was “half amazed” at the people conditions. It was all “a hideous and desolate wilderness, full of wild beasts and wild men,” with “savage barbarians,” who were “readier to fill” the sides of the Pilgrims “full of arrows than otherwise.” It took me by surprise because I certainly not waited for this outcome .
It is just intriguing how our lives are going to be developed here, I think it is a matter of time until we find out. For the present moment, I feel quite unhappy and surprised